..... .... ... .. . mimi

thats rite...it's not over

1st and foremost ladies and gentlemen...
a very very big HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET LOVING SISTER!!!!!

Rozzie...
18 aready...
Love ya aite...

tats tat....
nw abt pple givin up...i noe tat its hard but sumtimes wen we feel tat its the end of the world,someting good happens to us.so wad im trying to say tat its not the end...be patient maybe better things are goin to happen soon.u neva noe rite.u may miss that person or watever stuff uh but u juz have to live life to the fullest rite.its not wrong to miss tat someone but its not the end.u neva noe tat u get to find someone beta..rite?so please dont think its the end rite...sori abit confusing but understand rite?hahaha

werk have been fine.no problems.only the paint tat splated on my topshop pants...damn!hahaha.its okay...i could just buy it again..hahaha...action nyer!!!

btw...happy bday to sham too...he's 21 uh da lepas legal age seh...
hahaha

so tonite...is football day...EPL..must rush hm to watch football uh...
so haf a great weekend everyone...
i noe mines will be good...
as usual...
hahahah...
k peace out...

*)mimi

Saturday, March 31, 2007 // 12:06 PM

smile!!!!everyone!!!!

it was a week full of boredom for me.wanted to go sumwhere yestaday but at last i had no mood to do it uh.met naz & tini at town.just chill talking abt work,friends,birthdays and stuff.damn! i need to drink.so much on my mind now.

oh yeah,
wanna talk about relationship uh...
Poor natasha...i pity my bestfriend.known for around 12-13 years.and it was the first time i saw her so angry,fustrated,sad everything la.just be patient and i'll always hope thing will turn out just fine for u n ur guy aite.

bro u should chill too.and not get too upset or stress out.sometime gerls are just too complicated for us to really understand.it takes time.smile aite bro.

and u,my elder bro,my blood,my bestfriend,my cuz,ur situation truthfully is too confusing for me to understand too.but as i told ya before,dont give up aite.i noe things have been very bad recently wit ppl surounding u and us but we still must look at the brightside.think of everything as a hurdle and there's always a chance to pass it.eventhou it will take time,effort and patience.abt our lovely granny,im angry yet also sad uh.but in sum ways she has made her choice so we must just accept it.and find ways to make the situation beta.i noe its hard.but patience is the word.cuz dun give up okay.

as for me,i'm just being patient too.im single,confused,and stress too.but i find ways to relieve it.im not in a relationship and im glad tat i dun have all those probs u all are facing rite now.but im here to help.but also to come and think of it....
sometimes it feels lonely too...
but it okay i have all of u...
rite?
=)
when i think of it...my effort for ppl are unappreciated,but its just me.guess i've not found the rite one.maybe...

missing memories

i missed the time when i first saw u with ur specs,ur short hair,ur cute face

i missed the time when i first saw u we walked from eunos to paya lebar coz we didnt noe where to go

i missed the time when u act like ur terrified when the train enters the tunnel

i missed the time when we would walk from bugis to esplanade and watch the sunrise

i missed the time when u used to bite me when i disturbed u

i missed the time when my hand become swollen after u bite it alot of times.

i missed the time when we used to listen to our fav song Razor blade by The Strokes

i missed the time when u kissed me every time we met

i missed the time when u called and talk like we had all the time in the world

i missed the time when u fall asleep when i was talking with u

i missed the time when u would say thanks for brightin up ur day before u fell asleep

i missed the time when u fall asleep everytime we bored the taxi or the bus

i missed the time when we chilled and drink together

i missed the time when we danced together

i missed the time when u listen to all of my prob

i missed the time when u made me happy

i missed the time when u say u missed me and u loved me

i missed the time when we were together

haiz!!~!

sometime i just hope tat i meet someone tat will take u off my mind.

so...

suicide anyone???
hahahahaha
nah joking aite...
smile everyone!!!

*mimi o_O

Thursday, March 22, 2007 // 11:19 AM

01 X hour late = minus 06 X dollars

this is a song by nelly furtado,Justin and Timbaland.like the beat of this song uh.give it to me...
btw i came across this poem while surfing the net a while ago.so go on..read it.i think its nice

I Confess

I confess, before I met you, I was on
a lonely journey, on a dead end road.

I confess, you brought sunlight, to the
dark abyss within me.

I confess, you awakened my senses, to
the beauty that life held.

I confess, I can tell you where, what day,
and under what willow tree,
I fell in love with you.

I confess, the first time, I felt the softness of
you and the rapture of your body, I felt as
man, finally complete. Finally fulfilled.

I confess, when I realized that you loved me,
it caused me to weep with happiness.

I confess you have released me from darkness and
replaced the hopeless of my existence, with the
joy of life.

I confess, your voice, is as a bird in song and your
smile, is as the light of night.

I confess, when I utter your name, it comes as a
symphony, from my heart.

I confess, when you are near, you a like the fragrance,
from the flowers of a field.

I confess, your moist lips, beckon one, as
the rippling sea, in a summers sunlight.

I confess, from my emotional prison, you have taken
me to castles in the air. Where the sun shines always,
and the flowers of life, forever bloom.

I confess, my past constant companions of loneliness,
and anguish, have been replaced by the love
you have showered me with.

I confess, I find you beauty, your heart so kind, and
your unconditional love, surely more than I deserve.

I confess, your gentleness, and purity of heart,
is like the pristine, new falling snow.

I confess, you are the sunlight in a darkened sky.
A delicate crystal goblet and the heavens rain, that
fill it.

I confess, you are summer days, winter nights, the
beauty of fall and the promise of spring.

I confess, when I found you, I found
the other half of who I am. You have
completed me.

I confess, you are my all, my everything....my life.

today i went to werk an hour late,which cost me $6.HaHa.forget to set my alarm clock the nite before.my mistake.after werk i went to Plaza Sing.went to the Starhub to collect my SIM card that i lost and went to suntec city to apply for a full-time job a toys'R'us.now i just wait for their call uh.after that i went to walk around city hall.a long time since i went out alone.it was fun.remember my old days wen i used to go out alone.no one new that.haha.seems soooo weird uh.

i cant be late for werk again uh.so gotta sleep early today.i've been rejecting my club offers from friends alot since sunday uh.coz i think that now,werk is more important than everything else uh.hopefully one of these days then i go.once in a while den aite.

my head still hurtz.but its not as bad as last few days uh.my cough is still there.but im feeling better as the days goes by uh.

thats alll for today
dada

*mimi

Thursday, March 15, 2007 // 7:26 PM

i'm a free man!!!! at long last...

this is a song by usher.u neva heared it before coz it dosent came out on the radio or hit the charts,but i lurve this song.from his album confession...this is throwback

hmmm...started today off with a good 5.30am alarm from my trusty alarm clock/handphone haha.and i didnt wake up immediately.i stopped it and changed it to 5.45am.wats the difference its just 15 mins,but 15 mins of sleep was a good 15 mins of sleep.haha.i wasnt late for my 1st day of werk,well just 7 mins later of the time i was supposed to punch in at.haha.who cares it's just a few cents off my pay uh.i had a positive mind today cos i'm finally out of that goverment shit uh.i went to work and started immediately,without training without briefing or anithing.its a good thing i worked a GIANT once coz it was nearly the same job scope of wad im doin now.so no problems at werk.somemore there were the like's of wan,ayam,lattif there to lighten up the morning uh.finished werk at around noon and then i went back to Selarang Camp,my old camp where i used to serve my national service at,wow!!how i luv saying that haha..when there to get some documents and get some signatures.there at my amazement,i got this thing called a 'COS' its Certicate Of Service.its a certificate of my 2 years service to the goverment,states my vocation,conduct and performance grading.what my frens and campmates got was either a good or satisfactory in the conduct and performance.why am i so amazed about is that,i got OUTSTANDING in both my conduct and performace grading.this is a sort of thing that not everyone could get uh.one of the reason that i got this is becoz of the award i got during my service.Outstanding Soldier For The Month of September 2005.and i'm glad i got this,after all these hard times i had,all those moments i have,this makes me smile and happy for the first time since a long time.and another reason is that if im goin for an interview, alot of 'them' wanna see my 'COS' and this will be helpfull for me to get a job.alot of my frens told me that too.for the first time since a long time a peice of paper have made my day since i got my 'n' levels results uh.don't bother asking me about my 'O's.haha...ok ok,enuf of the 'COS' thingy.then after that i went to CMPB.got lost at first went i entered.but i wasn't shy to ask around.then i got to the place where i was suppose to go and collect..........MY IC!!!!!! AT LAST I GOT MY PINK IC!!!haha.im free..haha!now i got 2 IC...my pink IC,SAF 11B and hopefully my third will be coming soon.haha.Inshaallah!after all this i went to Mc'D' to eat. A good day to sum up.but something spoiled it.suddenly when i was eating,my head hurtz!!!DOPE!!! its hurtz at my forehead to the left just above my left eyebrow.understand?haha...in simpler non-confusing terms my left temple hurts.haha.been a few days aready.Could it be stress??maybe i've been thinking too much uh.i need a holiday.somewhere far.i need someone to go out and do stress relieving stuffs or someone who can make me forget everything.SEE...u can noe that i've been thinking alot...haha...yestaday i went to vivocity to watch a movie wit my cuzzie MJ...n at long last too i ate BEN & JERRYS!!!da tk kempunan lagi.hahaha.we watched...

awesome movies guy.a must see.a bit gorry but i was awesome!!!! and i can't wait for the movie that i and my cuzzie MJ will be patiently waiting...

THE SIMPSONS MOVIE.i have predicted that i will be laughing my socks off...cant wait to see homer!!!even hearing him say 'DOPE!' i would laugh...

hahaha.can't wait uh.btw the sad part of today is that i lost my starhub sim card.it has been faithfull with me since 2003 uh.now i want to use my starhub line back soon,and kick out my singtel line.its hard having two hp lines uh.and i miss sue again!?! alah everyday lah...haha

today haf made me realise that there is hope of a bright and happy future eventhou of my past.so to the people around me, i think u noe who u are,i noe maybe my life is not so hard as urs but it's still hard.have faith in GOD and be patient.inshaallah.there will be HOPE and LIFE will be better.Juz be patient...SMILE aite?!!

*
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***mimi

Tuesday, March 13, 2007 // 8:22 PM

*confusion

song by omarion - i'm tryna,
a song suitable for my mood rite now uh...

sori to say this...
but i really miss sue alot...
i wished that i could see her rite now...
but...

my head still hurts...
and im starting work tomrrow..
how uh...
just get on with werk watever happens uh...

i wrote a poem...

alone i walked this cold nite,
my heart was filled with pain,
i wish that u were rite here wit me,
to ease it all away.

i knew that wad i did to u,
was too much for u to take,
but i would give up everything,
juz to see ur face.

everyday i waited,
while i watched the sun arise,
hoping that on that particular day,
u'll return and bring a smile to me.

i miss her like the stars??rite cuzzie??
hahaha...

i miss the time we spend together...
haiz

*mimi^botak

Monday, March 12, 2007 // 6:31 PM

pain la

this is a song that i came across a few days ago while in my frens car on the radio...

its been a week...and im still sick...
my head hurts and i cough like hell...
even eating my meds it doesnt werk...
just eat MORE rite..??!!
haha

today is the 11th of march!!!
and i wanna wish...
Tini a happy birthday!
Shasha a Happy birthday!
Jogi a hapi birthday!

wah so many bdays uh...
yestaday i went to Momo to celebrate tinis birthday,sori coz i left early. my head was killing me thats why...and its still now...
i cant eat properly,only a bit only...body aches everywhere...
haiz...
and in two days time im starting werk...so must go back to full fitness b4 i start werk uh...

a picture of me n Lilah uh...before momo yestaday...
n tomorrow is my ord date!!!
im so happy...at last uh...
pain uh my head...
i need a rest...

*mimi

Sunday, March 11, 2007 // 7:11 PM

open up ur eyes please...

todays JT's nite...
love this song,coz i think some parts of the lyrics are great..

wanna qoute abit here..
this is the interlude...:

"Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

What goes around comes back around"

i've just written a poem...
its sucks but i hope it has an impact to some one that i was thinking about when i wrote it...i dun have a title for it so i just guess i post it only uh...

standing
in the middle of nowhere
when the clouds began to darken
alone
so cold
so dark
fright sets in
i began to panic
should i scream?
should i run?
should i cry?
or should i just die?
no...
i'm confused
i looked up
i saw a light
a light shining thru those clouds
so bright thru these darkness
Yes..
i must go on
never to give up
coz i noe
beyond those clouds
there must be a light
and surely
there must be hope

i hope u understand wad im trying to say...
take it as my advice...

and MJ...
its clear aite
jus be patient n please open up ur eyes...

all of u OPEN UP UR EYES!!!!!!

mines cant open
thats y..
haha

>>mimi

Sunday, March 04, 2007 // 9:52 PM

press 'start' and then press 'quit'?

a song about that special someone whose not there wit u animore....
but u are still reminded about tat someone everyday everynite every second of ur life...
circles by marques houston

yestaday was 'O' bar wit my mates greg,david,fadli and hizami...
it was ok...
stuffy but fun...
bcoz i got to drink alot uh....

today is quite a frustrating day for me.thinking abt stuff.skool.work.today again i've been reminded by myself that my dreams n hopes of goin SHATEC n getting a good carear as a chef "my ambition",wont be happening to me...why did i try and plan all this when i noe that 'GOOD THINGS JUST DONT HAPPEN TO CERTAIN PEOPLE' like me...

sorry to be saying this but becoz of u, i've to let go of my dreams and bcoz of ur own bloody mistakes that i end up like this.i noe who cares.i'll just do odd jobs or anithing uh...i've no future uh...why think of the future when i even think tat i dont have a life...

its just a dream.like i told sue...
but wad happen...if she was STILL here she would understand wad i was trying to tell her months back...but she isnt...shes gone just like my dreams...damn i missed her...

what i only have now is..
my family...
my cuzzie MJ...
my pc...
my ps2...
and my bed...
haha...
thats my life uh...
i dun believe in frens...
my frens wont be there for me...
never...
coz they have got their own lifes their own problems..
SOMETIMES....
i hoped that i could just press 'start'
and then press 'quit'

>>mimi

Saturday, March 03, 2007 // 3:54 PM